This month our sequence is the kriya for a happy back - the healing of the spine. The spine is the home of the spinal cord; the connection from the periphery and the limbs to the brain. Similarly, the sushumna is the central channel of our energetic system. It gathers in wisdom and current from our bodies and our surroundings, directing it into our lives, thoughts, and actions.
If during this month as I open my spine and sushumna, as I find become more accessible to forces of guidance and intelligence, my question has been: What within me needs guidance to become possible?
I recently came across a grand phrase - “wildly possible”. It felt to me like a combination of wildly important + pure possibility and gave me pause: what would I consider wildly possible, but is presently blocked or unseen?
This month I look to direct the awakened state of my spine to claim 3 (seemingly) wildly (im)possible things:
To be at ease in my body: Years of a contorted relationship with food to try to be thin, staying small to keep myself safe from failure and keep others comfortable with me, and a general discontent in my own skin has plagued me for years. This month I'm calling in support to let it go. I am at ease in my body.
To be at peace with my food: I have spent years learning about food, nutrition, spirit, healing, and they way they converge to create my body and health. I am finally crafting a more holistic perspective of plants from dirt and sunlight, including my microbiome, my role in the greater cycle of everything in every bite I take. Food isn’t entertainment or self-medication through indulgence or denial. I am at peace with my food.
To be in full knowledge of my mothering as exactly what my family needs to thrive. I have a vasana - a filter of perception built from repetition over and over until I take it to be Truth - that someone else would be a better mother than me, that their Real Mom will come and set it all to rights. Some days I can see the skill and blessing in my mothering, but I would ask and ask and ask again for a deeper sensation of trust in my care and choices for my kids. Who I am, at my heart, is the mother my kids require and love.
If our yoga practices are actually moving prayers we send through the systems of our bodies, making equanimity and intention a part of our physical and spiritual strength, then these are my prayers for this month. These are the thoughts that I would deem essential.
I know they are already true, already complete and whole and waiting for me. I know they enfold me each time I remember to allow them in and through.
You are a moving prayer. You are calling in and asking all the time. Refine your words, name your hunger. Then come and move it through you and beyond.
You are wildly possible.
You are the asker and the answer.
What are you open to this month? What are you calling in?
A happy back to you, a clear channel, a month of possibility.
It leads us straight into the heart in July.
See you soon. Much love, Martha xx